Focus.

As I was talking to a fellow EDGEr about a week ago about her experience on campus the topic of honesty came up. How we needed to share the struggles as well as the joyous moments on campus. That the struggles is what makes us stronger and may be able to be improved if shared and prayed about. October is now the month of honesty. So here goes...

Setting my own schedule; motivating myself to get off my bed and do things is hard. It's not that I lack passion or motivation for what I do. I absolutely love my job, don't get me wrong there, but I feel as though Satan has really been plaguing me with distractions. I don't have a set desk or office area so my "office" is my bed, but that doesn't feel like work. It feels like relaxing time. So I go to a coffee shop, but then I run into people I know. Then there is also the distractions of social networking. It's a never ending cycle.

William Borden, a gentlemen who radically changed the eternal destination of so many on his college campus and was called to missions in the early 1900s, wrote in the back of his Bible "No reserves, no retreats, no regrets." I ask that you boldly pray this for me. Pray that these students on campus become my unchanging focus. That this is my undying passion, rather then just my passion. That everything I do is to further the Kingdom and that "everything else is considered loss." (Phil. 3:8). That I am able to leave my comfort zone for the sake of the Gospel.

This is where God has called me and I have been reflecting on how this year is already a quarter of the way done. Wow. I don't want to reflect and have regrets that I didn't do enough. That I held back part of myself. That I was unwilling or too distracted to do something. This is where I want to be and I want to give everything I am to this cause. Please pray. Boldly.